i have spent endless hours of my life in conversation.
conversations about my life; past, present and future. conversations about my relationships; things i love and hate, expectations on others and myself, frustrations and joys. conversations about other people; judging and analyzing their words, actions and intents of their hearts. i have literally taken apart and put people back together in my dialogue. i have loved and hated, rejected and accepted, blessed and cursed. i have been around my world and back again. most of these conversations happened in a sacred place; behind my face. a place where only God can hear me. every thought that passes through my brain connects me to God. He knows every thought.
we as humans are in constant dialogue within ourselves, and most of the time we don't even realize someone else in in the room listening to every unspoken word.
it's funny to me that we put so much effort in controlling our actions and words so we don't offend other people; appearing selfish or arrogant. yet we place very little effort in controlling our thoughts and the content of our hearts. our fear of man has become greater than our fear of God. we have neglected the very place that God dwells to have an appearance of "Godliness". maybe you strive for the appearance of "selflessness, kindness, success, security..." it's meaningless without the life and power of God.
only God knows the thoughts and intents of our hearts...which is both beautiful and terrifying at the same time.
Psalm 139 (NIV)
1 You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely. ...
23 ....Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
