a co-dependent Savior

over the years i find myself falling more and more in love with the Christmas season.  i love collecting new memories and moments every year as i am surrounded by the relationships that make my life beautiful. i love celebrating my Jesus. the kid in me thinks He is a fan of the gift giving traditions because He gave the greatest gift of all. and who doesn't like presents? =)


i was thinking today about Jesus and what it must have been like for Him to come into the world as He did. this magnificent God who is all knowing, all powerful, and fully aware of the task ahead of him not only came into the world as a human, but totally dependent on his own creation for the very sustenance of life. it was by the milk of Mary's breast that He was able to be nourished and grow. there were poopy diapers, throw up, teething, potty training; mary had to care for the King of kings.


she taught this all knowing God how to walk, how to hold a spoon, maybe how to talk. i imagine it was joseph who took the time to teach him how to work with his hands and how to strap his sandals. both mary and joseph provided for their child's needs; food, clothing, shelter, love. the crazy part of that is He needed all those things from His parents. every child does.


it's amazing to think God depends on us for some things. He made that clear from the moment He was born. and we must remind ourselves that though He is the source of all things in our lives, we are a "source" for him as well. the Bible calls us "co-laborers" and "co-heirs". It's us "with" God.  Romans 8 talks of sharing in his suffering and his glory.  we pray often and invite Jesus into our suffering, but do we truly ever enter into His? we ask him to send his glory but never his sufferings...it challenges me to search the depths of my heart and examine my expectations of my Jesus.


 the phrase "co-dependent" has a negative connotation within the therapeutic context. be honest, you think of a co-dependent person as needy, unstable, and lacking in boundaries.  but I have to imagine that the idea of a "co-dependent" God is quite different.


 "co" means "with". "dependent" is defined as "relying on or requiring aid of another."


it's about relationship. i find it quite fitting when I think about my Jesus birthday and the way he choose to rely and require aid of his very own creation.  it's humble, it's messy, it's not the mighty warrior King they were waiting for. but that is my King.


maybe, just maybe; being "co-dependent" isn't such a bad thing.

ramblings of a barefoot travler

i have spent countless hours of my life in process.  ideas, conversations, sideways glances, motivations of the heart, the possibilities of what could have or should have been.  successes, failures, regrets, desires, hopes, intentions, relationships, the future, the present, the past.  the wheels of my mind spin endlessly as i seek truth and to be transparent and wholly who i am created to be.  this is why i have decided to start a public blog once again, to track the journey of where i am currently and to where i am going and hopefully inspired and be inspired in the process.


honestly, it's a love-hate relationship we have; my brain and i. i have learned i can't believe everything i think and sometimes it's hard to wrap my brain around what i want to believe. i am constantly living in inspiration or am continuously seeking for it. this blog is a place for me to process, to invent, to discover and to express the hidden treasures that my creator has  deposited inside this very complex daughter of His.  i dont know what He was thinking. 


 i think sometimes He looks into my heart and my life and with a big dopey grin on his face he shakes his head and says,

 "yep.  see that one...that's my kid. yep, the awkward one in the front row who can't seem to catch on as quickly as the rest...she's mine."

the goal : to experience life in it's fullness and embrace every possibility of the depths of my Jesus. to breathe and feel deeply, and to live as though i belong to Him in every word that finds refuge in the pages of this blog.